11 December 2008

The First Noël without Cricket

I'm tired of having a dark and gloomy house for Christmas when all my neighbors have lights up and/or trees showing through the window. I want to be part of the Christmas cheer. So I caved in this year and bought an artificial Christmas tree. I like real trees better. They smell nice, they are more environmentally friendly, and they were part of all my Christmases growing up, so they bring back fond memories. But they are such a hassle (they're hard to get home, they drop needles all over the place, and then you've got to find a way to recycle them afterwards), that I rarely get one. I've actually only had a real tree once, when I had a housemate with a truck who helped me pick it up. (The year that I used the trimming off the top of a friend's tall hedge as a "tree" doesn't count.) So I figured if I'm not even going to enjoy a real tree, why keep hanging onto the somewhat irrelevant sentimental notion that they are nicer? So I finally took the plunge. I went out and bought myself a Noma 6-1/2' Pre-Lit Self-Shaping Pine Tree, with little white lights. Here it is, pre-ornaments. As my Dad used to say every Christmas, I think it's the nicest tree I've ever had! I've already had one compliment from a neighbor about it. It has already enhanced my Christmas mood, and I got out my trumpet and have been playing Advent hymns and Christmas carols every day since. Yay! I love this season of the year.

But someone is missing from it all. Here's a photo from Christmas 2005 with Cricket. This is my first Christmas without her, and I still miss her a lot. I doubt she ever knew that there was anything special about the Christmas seaon. She actually looks kind of bewildered about the Christmas tree in this photo; it's the only time she ever saw one. But she loyally kept me company no matter what incomprehensible things I did. She just wanted to be wherever I was in the house, and she got used to being posed for photographs. She was usually pretty good at it, though in this one she does have that look of, "Come on, Rosie, haven't you got a good shot yet?" (I took six.)


J. Evan Kreider said...

This is a very thoughtful blog, honouring both the season and Cricket.

bugbytelove said...

Thank you for writing this. It gives me the courage to see my old dog Penny through to the end instead of giving in to the voices that might want me to put her down "so she doesn't suffer." She hates the vet and is terrified to go there. I didn't want that to be what she must face at the end. She is 16 now and though she is blind and deaf and stiff in the hind end, she still has a good appetite and interest in life. I'm bookmarking your site so I'll have you there to read as the time gets near. Thank you and thanks to Cricket.

kidberly@yahoo.com said...

Thank you for sharing Cricket's passing with me. My 17 1/2 year old lab cross Sister is fading and rallying, and I am trying to be ready, and your blog truely helped. Namaste, Kima in MT


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